i thank God.

subang rally.

5 years. 5 long years in Subang Rally didn't feel quite as long as I remember. It was as if it was only yesterday that I was asked to serve as a vocalist for session 1, Ignite SR'10. Subang Rally truly has been such a wonderful journey for me, so eventful, so life-changing.

For some, Subang Rally is just a yearly event where we went to party, meet friends, make memories and act like maniacs with youths from all over Subang for a day. I cannot judge, because along my 5 years of serving, many times have I fallen short of God's glory. 

I looked up to my seniors, wanted to be like them, wanted to be a part of them. And I felt left out when I wasn't. 

More than once, I fell to the sin of pride. Although my lips spoke of giving all glory to God, there was always pride and thought of self-glory. 

I wanted to be the one to sing the parts, I wanted to be the one on stage, holding the mic.

I looked through pictures on Facebook after rally, seeing how many I was in and how decent I looked.

More often than not, it was all about me. 

Even when I was made aware of my pride, I was in self denial. 

I wanted to do everything.

I was disappointed when not given the privilege to.

My own walk was a roller coaster ride, firing up days before and during rally, dying down and the process repeating year after year. 

I was tired, and felt insufficient, turning to God was never my option.

I waited for God to work a miracle, waited for God to do something, expecting rally to be able to touch me like it did before, make me cry like it did before.

But it didn't.

I was proud, I was relieved and satisfied with the way I served, my achievements and the friends I made. They became family, but I still wanted to be a part, not feeling enough love.

I waited to be pampered and to be loved.

I always wanted to be a part of the committee, to be the worship coordinator.

I felt like I knew best. But God knew me better.

As a kid in Form 1, I always wondered if I was going to be "good enough" to backup for night concert when I was Form 5. But after so long, I didn't want it anymore. I "couldn't do it", and "didn't have the time". I "had served enough". I thought. I denied it, but eventually took it up, and finally after the long journey, I pledge myself to fully trusting God, fully doing everything I do for God's glory, and not my own. 

I learned.

I learnt, I don't need to do it for the likes. I do it because I love and appreciate and want to testify.

I learnt, I need God by my side in everything.

I learnt, God gives us chances, even though we may have neglected Him for so long.

I learnt not to waste that chance.

I learnt, people do love me. I don't need to try to "belong". Because when we all seek God's love, we radiate that love to those around us.

I learnt, I don't need to seek recognition.

I learnt, it doesn't matter how I look on stage, how ridiculous.

I learnt, not to care what people think.

I learnt, that I was doing it for my God, not for the people.

I learnt, there's no easy way out. That there are no such things as convenient prayers.

I learnt, it's okay to listen to God's voice and sometimes be frank. Everyone needs a wake up call sometimes.

I learnt, I should seek God, instead of waiting for Him to shower his blessings on me.

I learnt, there are people who support me and care about me, I just need to look out for them too.

I learnt, I am not better than others. It is all by God's grace and mercy and kindness.

I learnt, to smile and learn, to be happy. The joy of the Lord, is my strength.

I learnt, there's no need to be shy, and just testify, and in all things to give all the glory to God.

I learnt, in each day, in each circumstance, God is with me, and I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. 

I learnt, I can be a vessel, a blessing to those around me, as much as I have my insecurities. 

I learnt, to turn to Him for everything, EVERYTHING.

I learnt, nothing matters more than Him.

I learnt, for my generation, I can make a difference.

I learnt, I can be the salt and light of my school, home, community, nation.

I learnt, Subang Rally changed my life and perspective of serving.

Perspective of worship.

Because worship isn't about singing songs and playing music.

Worship is about giving praises and glory to God every waking moment of our lives. 

Worship is ongoing, worship is beautiful. 

And worship is about God.

I truly thank God for the opportunity and privilege to serve Him. I thank God that He can use someone like me, who is so unworthy, but in God's eyes, He has made the unworthy worthy, the unrighteous, righteous.

I thank God for allowing me to be a blessing to others.

I thank God for His entire plan for me.

I thank God for the wonderful families I have, families of blood and of Christ.

I thank God for allowing me to intercede, and letting myself grow.

I thank God that he allowed Subang Rally to change my life.

Amen.

Lyanne 

into town.

beauty and fashion

Hello! I'm just painting my nails as I type. What am I painting? Scroll down then ;)

I'm really excited to start this new blog, and I really hope anyone who reads this will enjoy my content.

Down to KL town for big ol' birthday boy's birthday lunch, and shopping after!

top: giordano // jeggings: uniqlo // shoes: mod // bag: longchamp // 

watch: guess // necklace: diva // bracelet: diva

Haul of the day! 

                                             

Floral print cami dress from Miira mew, a Japanese boutique in Tokyo Town, Pavilion. Was surprised at the prices of the entire shop, because they were around the 20-30 Ringgit range for dresses, tops and skirts. 

This dress costed RM22.90, and came in two designs, this floral, yellow, salmon and blue one, as well as a navy blue tribal print one, which my sister got. Both are really cute and summery, and they are in free size, with a cinched but stretchable bust line. Such a bargain!

                                             

Grey loose pullover/ long sleeved T-shirt from DIVIDED by H&M, while at LOT10, that is SO comfy and versatile. It has a somewhat blurred stripy black and grey pattern, and is really really soft. Looking forward to wearing this over a lacy black tube top, or lounging in it on the beach. It's a little sheer but not entirely unwearable on its own, at the price of RM49.90.

                                                   

  

Second thing which was from H&M, a basic black flowy high-neckline dress, made from really soft and lightweight T-shirt like material. Also another really versatile piece, which can be dressed up or down. With some killer heels and some statement gold accessories, this dress would really classy but yet comfortable. Or, maybe with some ballet flats or sandals and a simple cross-body bag, it could be an easy "I didn't care but I still look good" outfit. So excited to wear this one! It sold at RM49.90 as well.

Uniqlo's Airism camisoles were on sale for RM19.90 which was about 40% of its original 30 Ringgit price. Have had  these camisoles for ages and are really lightweight and easy to wear under white/skin coloured clothing. For me, these are under-school uniform camis that can be worn everyday to combat the extreme humidity and heat in Malaysia without being indecent in school. Love these!

Black sandals with gold detailing and pretty grayish stones which I really like and have been what I've been looking from, and they're from Opera in Sungai Wang. These were about RM50, not sure of the exact price. These are actually a size up from my shoe size, 36, but fit pretty well. I'm still a slight bit doubtful of the level of comfort these sandals provide, but they have a really thick and squishy base, which I like. I like the cute little flower/ clover detailing which can actually be pulled to adjust the length of the straps too. I'm expecting to get a lot of use out of these new babies! 

Nailpolish current favourite: 

The Loreal Paris Holographic Shine nailpolish in the colour 812, with ORLY Top2Bottom as a basecoat and topcoat. 

The Holographic Shine nailpolish has been a new discovery for me and it is such a pretty peach-toned pink colour with holographic glitters that give it a gold sheen at different angles. Two coats of it is sufficient for it to be glittery and opaque. I think this has become my second go-to nail polish when I don't know what to paint it as it goes wonderfully with my skintone and looks very flattering. Its holographic glitters is another advantage as it's not very visible if not painted on very smoothly. 

My only problem with it is its texture, which can be a little gloopy and hard to apply and must be shaken very very well. But it's a possibility that the thickness and gloopy-ness could be caused by the fact that it is a VERY old bottle of polish (I don't even know since when) and could be drying up. I would love to get a new bottle soon and I really really hope they didn't discontinue and will not discontinue this product.

The Top2Bottom clear polish is a current favourite for me as it glides on so so easily and is very very easy to use. It's finish is a basic glossy look that makes nails feel much smoother if you have bad painting skills like me! HAHA. As for its lasting ability it is average, but it does the job.

Reading material waiting for my nails to dry!

I'm not the best person at applying nail varnish, mind me.

Hope this post was enjoyable, more varieties of content will be coming soon! :)

Lyanne.